Wednesday, April 8, 2009
♥ 2:15 AM
i am like rlly rlly rlly scared for ballet exam. its like next tuesday and all i'm doing in my free time is practice but i'm rlly afraid it wont make the difference. and i am like rlly trying to like get my steps rite , but ms.ho is like prejuduced towards me and bias to yuki. i dont hate yuki , shes rlly good but ms ho is being terribly unprofessional.i keep telling myself :" SHES STRESSED, THATS WHY SHE SCOLDS US". but like , i've realised that as a teacher , professionalism is a must. venting out your anger on us just cuz you're stressed is NOT professional. this is like a real-life thing of Animal Farm. i feel like one of the sheep , blindly following and deluding my true thoughts and actions in order to adhere to the rules of ms. ho. i cant accept it. i mean , i ballet is like a passion , a recreation for me , giving me and outlet to express my feelings or just let loose ,have fun and enjoy what i loved since i was 4.but if i have to put up and force myslef to come up with reasons i now find completely absurd just to fit in with my teachers"commands", i see no point in continuing with Ms. ho. she takes all the fun out of ballet when shes angry. sure; some may argue thats shes rlly fun to be around with when shes in a good mood , but if i only get to have fun when my teacher is in a good mood , whats the point?okay enuf about the negative things , lets talk about the HAPPY STUFF! well , i'm rlly excited cuz' SYF rehearsal is tomoro. hansol says we should go hang out. but UCC is like right smack in the middle of the (almost) wilderness. except for the yummilicious subway there. so we decided to cab to the nearest plc. its not confirmed yet.hahaha CANT WAIT.gtgdance-a-holic
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
