Saturday, August 1, 2009
they just dont get it
♥ 1:47 AM
okay so just for the record, my spirits are really down now. i dont wanna embarass that person(if thats even possible), but i got into a really nasty quarrel yesterday night before ballet. and yes, i know that its my weakness; that i dont like to admit i'm wrong and i definitely dont like to hear anything other than good stuf about me. but i will admit i'm wrong like after the fight/quarrel/dispute. but about yesterdays issue, i still dont see where/what i did wrong. ok so mom said it was my body language, but hey its not my fault you misinterpreted. and yes, i was trying very hard to control my anger.and you know, i really did try to heed my mom's advice and "talk it out". but when i came home, he was sleeping and once he woke up, he changed and left the hous. you know, we havent had such a big fight since, i said the F word in p6?! so yeah, i've been told by many to "swallow my pride", but lets put it this way, its easier said than done. and i value my pride and its embarrassing and difficult to just swallow it, especially when i feel i didnt do anything wrong. and he doesnt listen, or even TRY to listen to my justifications. I AM 14. i'm not a kid anymore and this type of treatment is just.... i dunno inappropriate. and i mean , like i said I AM 14. scolding me and expecting me to just listen there,meekly is pretty much impossible. i mean i have my own views and stuff so like UNDERSTAND. and i mean this generation is VERY different from the one you were in, where respect was like GOD.AUTHORITY.and in this day and age, with human rights and freedom of speech and whatnot, TIMES HAVE CHANGED DRASTICALLY.i mean i will still respect you, but youve got to grasp the evident concept that i wont respect you and treat you like god. i'll give you the due respect you need. which brings me to my next point. you dont understand mutual respect either. maybe its the generation gap , but hey if other ppl can do it, why not u? its very simple really: you respect me, i respect you. its very simple. but right now, youre not really respecting me. like treating me like i'm a kid. and dont tell me"YOU'LL ALWAYS BE A KID TO ME." because as much as you hate it, I AM NOT A CHILD.
sigh, okay i think ive vented out my anger/remorse/objections. i really want to go say sorry, but i JUST CANT SWALLOW MY PRIDE.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?
