Saturday, January 16, 2010
im gotta fight till we see the sunlight
♥ 5:49 AM
my lifes passing by in a blur now. its like a whirlwind op tests,dance, homework,late nights and drama.
dance today was KILLER.we had HF at 11. he was in a bad mood, cuz the people at the glass window bar kept talking so he got really pissed. like he did super simple exercises,and didnt really correct us.i feel quite bad for him. then we did swan. becky got scolded quite a lot.me too. sigh, i danced so much my pointe shoe tore at the bottom. my toes have been dying since the start of this year. that pointe shoe? its been with me even before pre-genee. thats like 7 months? MY SHOES HAVE NEVER LASTED SO LONG. actually, theyre super broken. but i can just hold my ankle up cuz i have this thing for that particular shoe.im feeling so sentimental today. crap, im turning into a softie.
then we had ms ho. i felt like a total slacker today. like i felt like laughing like some crazy woman!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah sigh hahah fun times:) went home, ate chng teng or whatever u spell it. so yummyyyyy! hahaha then.... i did history by watching tv. i watched this show for 2 hours on the french revolution and napoleon. he was sucha great man. so inspiring. love him!
doesnt he look so cool?hahah but he grew old REEEALY ugly:) but whatever he was a cool guy.
doesnt he look so cool?hahah but he grew old REEEALY ugly:) but whatever he was a cool guy.then we went to pick up my grandma for dinner at copthorne kings. i am so proud of myself, I STUDIED CHEM IN THE CAR!:) yay me.ate dinner, pretty normal stuff.
and now im in a reflecting mood. i dont know why. like im stoning pretty often , and i dont know im not my usual crazy self. maybe its just some way of my heart telling my body to chillax. so mcuh stuff happened this week, and i have some self reflecting to do. maybe ive been to harsh to people, said too much stuff, hurt them too much. sorrry then. and then i feel a certain unbalance between my friends and schoolwork. like how do people manage to keep on top of their schoolwork, and still manage to top the friend thing.
i guess im facing a stage in my life, where im still young, and in this day and age, in this type of society, youths like me and very influenced my mass media. we shape our mindset and sometimes even force our minds to believe smth just cuz the media says so. and its not right, but we all do it anyway.and i just feel the need to gather inspiration from everywhere, be it pop culture, historical figures or people in my life; and use these sources of inspiration in my life to try and be like those people, even to the smallest extent.
&when will you take me away on a balloon?